We all have those moments when life seem really crap and you just think there is no point to anything at all.
WRONG!
No matter how much the rain pours, there will be sunshine , , , , eventually.
Life is tough and sometimes for some its harder than others. I myself have had my share of it and for sometime now it has felt never ending. All you have to do is sit it out ad wait. And sometimes giving up seems the easiest option but it really isn't. It's easy for me to sit here behind my laptop and say I know how it feels but unless you actually know me or my life then you'll know what I'm talking about. I have revealed a bit in my last few blog posts for those who want to know what I'm on about.

Someone said to me . . . . . . 'Kayleigh, what do you want?'
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My lovely boyfriend took me to see Les Mis in London |
What did I want? That's something I didn't know the answer to. Did I want things to continue the way they were or did I want change. I knew I didn't want things the way they were, there were several reasons why I didn't. And if I ever wanted to be free and have a life of my own, things had to change. And so I started to look at ways my life could change. I'm learning that if there's a problem, it simply doesn't go away. There are certain steps you have to take in order for you to sort out the problem, then the problem should go away. I knew that I had to take small steps and steps that I took, I'd want to say no to but in order for change I had to. I moved out. It wasn't something I had planned on or even wanted to do and I cried when I knew that I couldn't take things anymore. I've never felt so alone being kicked out of the one place your suppose to feel safe and welcome. I'm going to thank my boyfriend and his parents for taking me in. I don't know where I'd be without them. I'm not alone and something I'm learning. I'm not alone, I have people in my life now that care. For years it had just been me on my own dealing with everything in my head. But now, I have people who want to sit and talk to me about things and want to help me. I'm having to get used to talking about things instead of bottling it all up because I was 'weak'. For all those people who have helped me in some way I actually thank you all. I'd probably be in that rainstorm if none of you hadn't have taken my hand and led me through. There are times when I have thought I give up, you win (to those people). But then I think, why should I and I won't. I'm going to fight this with every breath in my body, I'm going to stand up for what I believe in and so I'm getting on with life.Life can be crap and life gets hard but it's how you deal with these hard times that matters. And so I leave you all with a quote from Nicole Scherzinger -
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